enamorada pero no casada
ARGH. Slow computers again. Maybe because it's evening hours. Hopefully I'll get on-line at some point.
OK, first of all, I'm not married.
Secondly, I don't recommend the spaghetti here at this refugee camp. It's ok when you're starving, but once that initial feeling is over, it's quite icky. But the bread can be good. TOO MANY SIMPLE CARBOHYDRATES. Today I thought there would be international volunteer revolt when there was no food to be found. I finally just left.
Back to the first of all, it's all a little confused. He wants me to take my trip and then come back here to get married - after he's taken care of all his responsibilities. There are several - his work, visa, getting his daughters, etc. But perhaps most important is ending his last marriage. As a traditional marriage - where the families met, exchange of kola nuts, etc. - he's responsible for her. And he knows she's with somebody else in Cote d'Ivoire, but he needs the closure of taking a family member there to her to say that the responsibility is over. Which is all the right thing to do, and what I want him to do. Of course.
OK, I've been here almost 20 minutes and it still hasn't signed into hotmail or let me post to blogger. This is how slow it is. I just asked the guy here and he said it's worst now. Of course. My luck. I was going to try to upload photos ... another time.
OK, but back to the first of all, anybody reading this will be shocked to know that I AM NOT A PATIENT WOMAN. I love Dayton, he loves me, we want to be together - so we should RIGHT THIS MINUTE. The more he talks about a few months to take care of everything - with us in "constant contact" - the more he seems enamored of it. He likes that he's encouraging me to do what I wanted to do - I can tell. Which would be great if it were something I really wanted to do. But now, I'm not as excited about spending four months learning Arabic or volunteering in a tsunami-ravaged area of India. Sure, I'd take a few weeks to follow my trip's plan, but I'm ok with going back to the US now and moving on with things. I've got dissertation ideas and other Important Things to do.
And maybe I'm just impatient. Shocking, that idea. Maybe when he sees his ex-wife they'll want to reunite. And honestly, I would of course not stand in the way of that. But I just want to know if that's what's going to happen. He thinks I'm crazy when I say it - he says he's totally sure it's not. But I want to know. I need to know - to be a Marc Anthony song.
ANYWAY, I had a nice 37th birthday. The girls and I went to the beach yesterday and had a great time at Kokrobite just kicking back on the soft sand and in the warm water. And ate some great pizza - the first edible non-west African food I've had in a long, long time. On my birthday, Dayton showed up at the crack of dawn to wish me a great day, and then later we spent the evening together. Very nice. Everybody at PCO is angry at me for not having a big party, but they'll get over it if they love me a fraction as much as they insist they do.
I know, all the "love" word flowing around sounds crazy - but it all feels real. Like family in a weird crazy way.
Anyway, I finally got on internet so better post.
I just suggested to Dayton that I stay a bit longer and we go to Liberia RIGHT NOW. He's not enamored of the idea, I can tell - he likes to "take time" to do things the right way. Is this my patience karma? haha
OK, first of all, I'm not married.
Secondly, I don't recommend the spaghetti here at this refugee camp. It's ok when you're starving, but once that initial feeling is over, it's quite icky. But the bread can be good. TOO MANY SIMPLE CARBOHYDRATES. Today I thought there would be international volunteer revolt when there was no food to be found. I finally just left.
Back to the first of all, it's all a little confused. He wants me to take my trip and then come back here to get married - after he's taken care of all his responsibilities. There are several - his work, visa, getting his daughters, etc. But perhaps most important is ending his last marriage. As a traditional marriage - where the families met, exchange of kola nuts, etc. - he's responsible for her. And he knows she's with somebody else in Cote d'Ivoire, but he needs the closure of taking a family member there to her to say that the responsibility is over. Which is all the right thing to do, and what I want him to do. Of course.
OK, I've been here almost 20 minutes and it still hasn't signed into hotmail or let me post to blogger. This is how slow it is. I just asked the guy here and he said it's worst now. Of course. My luck. I was going to try to upload photos ... another time.
OK, but back to the first of all, anybody reading this will be shocked to know that I AM NOT A PATIENT WOMAN. I love Dayton, he loves me, we want to be together - so we should RIGHT THIS MINUTE. The more he talks about a few months to take care of everything - with us in "constant contact" - the more he seems enamored of it. He likes that he's encouraging me to do what I wanted to do - I can tell. Which would be great if it were something I really wanted to do. But now, I'm not as excited about spending four months learning Arabic or volunteering in a tsunami-ravaged area of India. Sure, I'd take a few weeks to follow my trip's plan, but I'm ok with going back to the US now and moving on with things. I've got dissertation ideas and other Important Things to do.
And maybe I'm just impatient. Shocking, that idea. Maybe when he sees his ex-wife they'll want to reunite. And honestly, I would of course not stand in the way of that. But I just want to know if that's what's going to happen. He thinks I'm crazy when I say it - he says he's totally sure it's not. But I want to know. I need to know - to be a Marc Anthony song.
ANYWAY, I had a nice 37th birthday. The girls and I went to the beach yesterday and had a great time at Kokrobite just kicking back on the soft sand and in the warm water. And ate some great pizza - the first edible non-west African food I've had in a long, long time. On my birthday, Dayton showed up at the crack of dawn to wish me a great day, and then later we spent the evening together. Very nice. Everybody at PCO is angry at me for not having a big party, but they'll get over it if they love me a fraction as much as they insist they do.
I know, all the "love" word flowing around sounds crazy - but it all feels real. Like family in a weird crazy way.
Anyway, I finally got on internet so better post.
I just suggested to Dayton that I stay a bit longer and we go to Liberia RIGHT NOW. He's not enamored of the idea, I can tell - he likes to "take time" to do things the right way. Is this my patience karma? haha
posted by NOLA at 1:06 PM
1 Comments:
Yes, of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Sorry for the belatedness.
Maybe Dayton's idea to wait a bit is a good one.He probably wants to know that you are both very sure about this BIG decision. Smart fella, I think.But it's cute that you're such a romantic.
Roberta
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